stunned

I used to look forward to now, and here I am, looking back.

I used to know that once I arrived here and now that everything would be as it is, just as it was. And it is.

It then came as no surprise to me that once I arrived here, I'd be just where I was when I started, here.

The journey was so short that the time it took was my whole life and infinite eons.

I arrived before I had the notion of an I who should go.